Sunday, September 12, 2004 11:07 PM
Frustrated . . .
I'm s0me1 tat dun like ppl t0 say gd 0r bad things behind me.. I never feel this kind 0f feelings b4.. Even if I did changed, I 0nly had changed a little.. Wad made me change is due t0 wad u have did.. Every m0vements tat u had d0ne, is very scary.. In the past, I never thk s0 much cuz I dun believe wad 0thers say.. N0w, ppl ask me wad happening.. Is n0t 1, is a l0t ! I dun mind explaining t0 1 0r 2, but is a l0t (i w0n't say the names).. Y d0 u have t0 keep spreading ar0und 0r say ar0und.. Zz.. U can't st0p wad I wanna d0, is my life.. They seem t0 kn0e wad happening and ask me y I like this n tat.. It is my ch0ice t0 d0 wad I wan.. I'm scare I did wr0ng.. I ask ar0und f0r advis0rs.. But u are getting t00 much.. When I thk, I'm very angry.. I have my little secrets n privacy t00.. I dun wan every1 t0 keep asking me wad's g0ing 0n.. As if i had ch00se the wr0ng path instead ! I had enuff these few days.. Tat's n0t happiness, is fedupness.. Put urself in my sh0es, u will kn0e the scariness I have been thru.. Dun say I meanie 0r wad, cuz u sh0uld kn0e wad u had d0ne.. I juz h0pe tat all this will st0p w/o u disappearing 0r wad.. Juz face it !
I actually wanted t0 phrase the things I wanted t0 say in an0ther way.. I'm t00 angry t0 phrase it.. I have my limits s0me times t00.. Wh0ever tat read this, I dun wish t0 explain, take it tat u saw it 0r nv.. U can feel h0w angry I am..
Sigh.. After saying 0ut, I did feel much better.. I need s0me peace.. Getting tired but think I sh0uld g0 d0 my pr0jects..
** Patience has s0me limits t00 **