Sunday, September 05, 2004 5:34 PM
H0liday ending . . .
S0 fast.. 1 week h0liday g0nna say bb.. H0liday ma chiam n0 h0liday.. M0nday n Tuesday stay at sk00l d0 pr0ject.. Wednesday w0rk wh0le day.. Thursday pain wh0le day.. Friday w0rk again.. Saturday slack wh0le day.. n t0day? Stare at the c0mputer wh0le day I thk.. Wad a h0liday..
Think quite a l0t t0day.. I feel tat I had changed n understand myself even m0re in bgr matters.. I still g0 f0r care, enj0ying the care tat the 0ther gives me.. But I can't find the feelings f0r 1, even th0ugh 1 had care s0 much f0r me.. I dun give it a try unless I like the pers0n.. Is n0t tat i'm n0t giving chance 0r wad.. I find n0 feelings h0w t0 give chance.. Wad's the use 0f giving it a try n u find tat in the end the result is still the same.. I tried tat b4.. S0 I dun wanna try again.. I'm n0t str0ng t0 give it a try.. Neither will I need u t0 give me the p0wer t0 try.. I dun wan sh0rt relati0nship.. I juz wan 1 tat can last th0ugh it can't be f0rever.. I can believe f0rever in frenship but n0t in relati0nship n 0thers.. Ask urself u really will d0 s0mething f0rever? I asked myself tat, my ans = n0.. Things will happen 0r change during this peri0d, st0pping u t0 reach the 'f0rever'.. The w0rd f0rever t0 me is like nth.. Even th0ugh t0 0thers, it was like a pr0mise but pr0mise will break.. S0 t0 me, 'f0rever' is nt a special w0rd 0r wad.. I try t0 av0id many ppl, talk less 0r wadeva.. I juz dun wanna made m0re stupid mistake.. n have t0 explain t0 every1.. I'm tired 0f explaining.. Give me a break.. The decisi0n is mine.. N0t h0w 0thers tell me whether is gd 0r bad.. They r juz my advis0r.. Final decisi0n is wif me.. Sigh..
Well.. Tat's wad I have been thking t0day.. 0s0 been discussing wif my Sz CS buddies 0n where shall we g0 during Sept 11.. M0stly catching m0vie.. I wanna watch h0rr0r m0vie.. S0 l0ng nv catch a m0vie le.. Anyb0di wanna acc0mpany me watch? :( Cheryl dun wanna watch h0rr0r m0vie.. s0bx.. Maybe dun watch 0s0 gd.. Can save $$.. I'm getting 0ld.. Keep 0n f0rgetting l0ts 0f things.. Next time muz write d0wn den can recall..
** Be back the usual self is wad I'm trying t0 d0 n0w.. **