Monday, December 06, 2004 1:05 AM
0pening my heart. . .
Ever since N0vember, I had been w0rking alm0st everyday.. 0f cuz there's still break in between.. I always t0t tat w0rking can made me st0p m0st 0f the things which I dun want t0 think abt.. Yes, it did but 0ccasi0nally, it will still made me think.. These few days I dun0 why, I'm getting easily frustrated, m00dless.. I had n0 idea wad had get int0 me..
W0rk:
W0rking gave me l0ts 0f stress, used up all my energy.. But I enj0y it.. Seeing s0 many upc0ming functi0ns c0ntin0usly, I think I might break d0wn s00n.. The b0ss is getting demanding, he didn't kn0e tat m0st 0f the staffs are suffering badly.. But well, I can't really blame him t00.. Tat's wad staffs are f0r.. We r lacking 0f man p0wer.. :(
Bgr:
Like I say I was trying t0 use w0rk as an excuse n0t t0 think 0f bgr stuffs.. Everything, there's stress, including bgr t00.. Bgr can either increase ur stress, 0r decrease ur stress.. It all depends 0f h0w u handle it.. I still feel tat having a partner is equal t0 u have less freed0m.. I ch00se t0 av0id bgr cuz I'm still immature as in I dun really kn0e h0w t0 handle it pr0perly.. I just wanted t0 make m0re frens ar0und me.. Having fun n n0 much seri0usness..
C0unter-
Strike:
W0rking alm0st everyday, I seld0m play cs till t00 late.. I'm in a CS c0mmunity kn0wn as Sub-Z0ne (SZ).. Fr0m a small gr0up 0f members t0 a big gr0up 0f members n0w.. A server 0f 20 ppl, was always full 0f admins.. Seeing tat alm0st 1/2 0f the admins r breaking the rules, I was like 'sigh'.. M0re n m0re ppl r having the admins privilleges.. S0metimes, I d0 have the feelings tat the server d0 nt need me anym0re.. Whether seni0r 0r juni0r, all r the same.. Yes, it is just a game.. But I still think tat respectati0n is needed.. During my break, I went int0 the server t0 play.. Sigh.. It made me l0st interest in playing CS.. D0 they really treat me as 1 0f the 'seni0r' admin? Sigh.. A game 0s0 will made me feel s0 frustrated.. (LinGz, Can't u juz f0rget n let it g0?) Maybe is really time f0r me t0 st0p csing, since my headph0nes was g0ing t0 sp0il n my mirc0ph0ne t00.. Fated..
Happiness:
Yesterday went t0 an 'angm0' h0use t0 d0 0utside cathering.. $9 per h0ur.. Wee.. W0w.. It was a 3 0r 4 st0rey high terrace h0use.. Very nice.. It had a swimming p00l t00.. :( H0w I wish I had such a h0use.. Yuckk, g0t t0 st0p day-dreaming.. Had been helping them putting the f00d n serving the drinks.. Cleaning the place t00.. Haha.. Watched the angm0s challenging each 0ther by drinking 1 glass 0f beer wif the fastest speed.. W0w.. The fastest was at 2.38 sec0nds.. Unbelievable.. M0st 0f them 0nly managed t0 drink at abt 7 sec0nds.. *Claps* 0ur b0ss managed t0 drink at 5.34 sec0nds.. Den the next event I saw was s0me 0f them jumping int0 the p00l.. Challenging wh0 will made the water splash higher.. l0lx.. When I was g0ing t0 clear the plates at the tables near the p00l, I nearly tripped n fell t0 the p00l... Phew.. I balance myself.. The 0wner was stunned t00.. L0lx.. It made me dun dare t0 g0 near there, I walked the 0ther side.. Finally, Cheryl n me finished packing the stuffs, we were s0 tired.. Is n0t due t0 the w0rk 0n yesterday but is the c0ntinu0us 0f w0rk f0r many days.. Earned quite a l0t yesterday.. We headed h0me tiredly..
** N0 qu0te t0day, T00 tired t0 think 0f 1.. **