Monday, December 27, 2004 2:23 AM
Sad But True. . .
All these while, I had been wanted t0 p0st my bl0g, either am I t00 lazy 0r simply juz dun wanna write.. Wanted t0 write happy events during the past few days but sadness had over-c0vered my happiness.. Sigh.. Sch begins n s0 d0es my stupidness thinking begins.. I really dunn0 wad had get int0 me these few days.. I'm really mad..
C0unter-Strike:
Farewell t0 my bel0ved CS n SZ.. I really hate t0 say that.. I dunn0 why leaving SZ seems like cutting a meat 0ff my b0dy.. It hurts.. Sigh.. Yea.. T0 many ppl, it was just a game.. But t00 bad I put my feelings int0 it.. Treated SZ members as a family.. Fr0m a 10-15 ppl t0 abt 30+ ppl.. In a game, u hardly can see the truth face 0f 1 pers0n 0r make a gd fren.. But I'm glad tat I had make s0me fr0m CS frens t0 real-life frens.. Indeed g00d frens they r.. Th0ugh there are 0nli a few, I'm happy enuff.. Ever since I typed 'I'm leaving SZ', I started t0 feel tears in my eyes.. Am I stupid 0r wad? But tat's me.. Humans have feelings t00.. It was like u r in a family.. U r the big sister, wanted every1 t0 be 0bedient n g00d.. But they just simply dun respect u.. Sigh.. 0nce they g0t int0 the family, wh0 cares abt whether u r bigger 0r wad.. I dunn0 when I can st0p myself fr0m playing CS.. S0bx.. ** Supp0rts needed **
BaBy LinGz - Quits CS -
Ever since tat Christmas Eve at my w0rkplace, I drank quite a l0t.. Which made till my thinkings came 0ut.. I had used w0rk as an excuse t0 st0p myself fr0m thinking abt relati0nship.. I kn0e it will came back t0 my mind.. But when I'm clear 0f my mind, i realised tat I had been talking t0 th0se tat r either attached 0r bigger than me by a l0t 0r th0se smaller than me.. I was sh0cked.. C0mmunicating f0r l0ng, indeed will cause s0me misunderstanding 0r tr0ubles.. 0f cuz, I'm still wanted t0 c0ntinue my single-h00d.. Cuz I dun think there's really a need t0 have a partner f0r n0w.. Admiring th0se tat r attached, feel happy f0r them.. U can't always wait f0r the pers0n wh0m he/she had rejected u b4.. Am I regretting 0r wad? But life still g0es 0n.. Wanted t0 make m0re frens, but dun wanna t0 get t00 cl0se.. Anyway, I juz wanted t0 c0ncentrate 0n my studies f0r n0w.. N had s0me changes in me.. I h0pe I had a clearer mind 0f my path n0w..
** Dun treat me t00 gd, I might get misunderstanding **