Wednesday, March 23, 2005 9:22 PM
Everything just went abs0lutely wr0ng!
Came here t0 write my bl0g, as I dun feel like telling anyb0dy h0w I feel right n0w again. Sigh. My schedule is t0tally packed. Pr0jects, pr0jects n pr0ject.
Yes, I didn't kn0w h0w t0 actually plan my time well. Even pr0jects are due-ing, exams are c0ming, I still play games, w0rk, etc. But can't expect me t0 f0cus 0n my pr0ject everyday. I need t0 relax 0s0. Sigh. In sch00l, I can't be my usual self. Facing s0 much pr0ject(XML, M0bile, ITIPJ). 3 different kinds 0f pr0gramming language, can't expect me t0 really think 3 in 1 r0w. I'm n0t g0d. I can't s0lve things. I can 0nly s0lve if I had c0me acr0ss the same err0r. N n0t just by asking me.
I kn0w myself n0t very well. But I'm s0me1 tat's selfish. I dun really g0 f0r perfect, but just make sure I understand wad U are d0ing. I went everything t0 be c0mpleted b4 I g0 f0r the next step. Like wad ppl always say, is very hard f0r U t0 change, especially during this critical time.
Th0ugh t0day I finally had d0ne s0me 0f my m0bile part, SMS(ITIPJ) part, I sh0uld be happy but I'm n0t. Cuz my buddy had n0t been there t0 share my happiness wif me. I simply just did s0mething wr0ng which I had n0t been aware 0f. 0ur thinking just crashed. Sigh. She's hurt. S0 do I. I d0 n0t kn0w h0w t0 take the initative t0 admit my mistake. Maybe saying s0rry, 0s0 can't really s0lve the pr0blem. What else can I d0. I'm in a l0ss. I can feel tat she's seri0us by the way she talked. But is my thinking like tat? H0w I wish everything will be fine right n0w. Cuz I dun want t0 l0se such a gd buddy.
** Terribly sad **