Friday, July 29, 2005 1:49 AM
Mad I guess . . .
U kn0w me. I just p0st wadever I felt t0 this bl0g. Either happy, unhappy 0r crazy, I just simply p0st it straight here. Due t0 harshness, I din really think much. Everytime re-scanning thru my bl0g, I felt tat y there's seems t0 be an0ther side 0f me. Sigh.
Getting stress. Java. L0l. Dun let me hate u. U better let me s0lve u immediately. I might be crazy n0w. =( These few days my stubb0rness had been getting 0ver-limiting, hurting many 0f th0se tat care f0r me. I'm s0rry. I can't stand my stubb0rness 0nly. I pr0mise I'll change tat. I need time. Sigh. N0 much appetite. Yesterday supp0sed n0t t0 be w0rking and c0ncentrating 0n Java. But there's s0me1 h0spitalized. S0 n0 ch0ice g0t t0 take 0ver her shift. Well, even if s0me1 say she can't w0rk, I will still be s0ft-hearted n willing t0 help. T0day, schedule messed up as it had been changing by them frequently. S0 I changed my shift t0 3 as I'm really very tired. Reached h0me n eat wif mama n watched vcd wif her. =( N0 java mind yet. Went t0 see c0mputer awhile. But mum asked me t0 g0 grandma's h0use t0 have dinner. 0h-n0. Dunn0 why suddenly I felt like eating l0ts. Sigh. Stressness? Went t0 'giant' wif mum n br0. Spent $80+. M0stly is 0n wad I buy. I b0ught l0ts 0f junk f00d. Sigh. I really need it while I stare at the c0mputer f0r l0ng h0urs t0 keep myself awake.
I wasted 1 day again. Can't s0lve my java. I can't g0 0n any further. But. Shall I push myself t0 the m0st extreme limit? I scare I will break d0wn. But if I dun, I scare I dun even have the time t0 finish. Right n0w, just h0ping myself t0 relax a bit n tat's y I came t0 bl0g. H0ping everything will be alright. Ap0l0gies f0r everything.